“All our best men are laughed at in this nightmare land.”
– Jack Kerouac

Saturday, November 12, 2016

Hiking Upstate

Hiking upstate with an old friend who has been touring the country and Canada for almost a year. He has an airstream trailer and has been traveling through state parks and remote isolated locations. I'm envious of his travels and wish to get outdoors more like him.
We take his truck and head out on a hike at the local state park 30 mins from my friends house upstate. We go on a shorter trail since it is afternoon already. I hear about hiking and camping experiences along the way.

Next time I will hope to try some camping. I'm already dreading making my way back to the city and being back in the megalopolis. But until next time I will be trying to keep some zen in the city...

Monday, August 15, 2016

Work and CA

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Headed to CA after working three nights. Yelled at today for smoking my vapor e cig in the private dining room while we were on our pre-service break. Thought I was gonna get written up for it but didn't.

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In CA. Nice to be out of New York and away from waiting tables for awhile. I would prefer to stay out here indefinately. Aja saying that I should try to be more bicoastal. That has been my plan for the last 12 years,I say. It hasn't quite panned out for me.
Well if you write a bestselling book you can. She says.
I got the book part done just not the bestselling part, I say.
Maybe that will change.
Maybe I should look for a waiting job out here. Some kind of work. Work on the Plague book some more. It doesn't seem as interesting as subject here but think it will translate.
H1NZ. Seeing a guy in LA who is working at a cafe that seems to be infected with it also. He's looking a little macabre. Like you can see his bone structure a little too well.
"Are you coming to the worker's rally tonight?" I ask him.
He looks at me suspiciously. Maybe I misjudged him.

Thursday, January 21, 2016


80 days sober. I want to only do the labor part of the job. Be an efficient waiter. Not think about the personality part. People drinking a lot at the restaurant. It’s a Wed night what are these people doing getting trashed like this? Was a weird night. Me getting shit about the table not turning. Too slow. Let another table wait forever. Really not looking forward to it. Failing like shit I guess. The one girl thanking me on the Brett Ratner guys table. I think that she felt really bad for me because every time I asked the table something they flat out ignored me. They ignored me the entire meal. Talking about fucking and all the different women the Rat-guy had been with. While he was rubbing the two women’s shoulders sitting on each side of him. They had these vacant looks like they were empowered but also being objectified at the same time.